bittersweet angeL's journey

After reading an article about a father who died unexpectedly and how his 
children realized his importance, now that his gone, now that its already too 
late.. it hits me.Yes, really indeed.


While reading the article, many memories flashed back in my mind.Mostly., it 
was during my childhood days..I remember when Papa taught me how to play 
chess, he even plays with me patiently and taught me the "3 moves technique" 
I was six years old then..Another is when he let me come with him in buying 
"paninda" for our little sari-sari store.We left our house at around 4 in 
the morning..You see, very masipag di ba? ^_^..Let me also share you 
the times when my Papa taught us how to swim.We were in Labo, Cam Norte 
and I remember that theres an irrigation 100 meters away from 
my Mamay's house.. (my Lola..thats what we used to call her)..And really 
fathers trained their children in a hard way..lol.. he throw us one by one 
into the water..and of course..human instinct..you'll try hard not to be 
drowned..yes..thats how we learn..at least.. And there's one more..
my mama used to share this story, when I was still a baby.
I cant sleep if Im not in my Papa's chest..(sweet isn't)


But I dont remember anymore when was the last time I texted him..When was the 
last time I asked how he is doing..When was the last time I talked to 
him..Today I learned to set aside my anger and the pain I feel inside of 
me..for so many years..I let this feeling ate me..I let this anger ruin 
me..Yes, parents also do mistakes but what the heck..children do have their 
own mistakes too!


Today, I forgive you..Today I forgive my self too..I've been away for too long..
At last I found this courage..This courage of letting him know that I still care..


"Papa kumusta na po? Miss ko na kamo ni Mama.. =/ "





Im sorry Papa..Mama..for all the headaches I caused and thank you for everything! I love you po..so much..


Let your parents know their worth before its too late..I just did.. ^_^