bittersweet angeL's journey

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you

Papa sorry..for being so hard on you..
I love you but I cant help this feeling..this anger I feel inside..
Gusto kong isumbat saimo gabus na pagkukulang mo Pa..!
for not being a responsible father to us..

but I cant...

and I wont...

because I'm still your fragile little angel..
longing for your love..for your guidance.. ='(





















MARK 11:25,26
"Whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father who is in heaven will also forgive you your transgressions.

"But if you do not forgive, neither will your Father who is in heaven forgive your transgressions."

EPHESIANS 4:31,32
"Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice."

"Be kind to one another, tender-hearted, forgiving each other, just as God in Christ also has forgiven you."

Hi, since Im a newbie here hope you will be kind enough to appreciate whatever I have shared..^_^.

So here's my favorite summer outfit..a skirt, a mini skirt to be particular..though I dont really have the right to wear one..I dont give a damn..haha..for I am more comfortable on wearing them than shorty shorts..and a loose shirt..a simple get up..and oh I nearly forgot my tribu sandals and my anklet..hehe..

but Im dying to wear this too (wishful)..




I got this last February in preparation for our suppose to be gala at Puerto Galera but for some KJ and immature girlfriend of someone named (insert your name here) one who also planned the activity.. dang..it was cancelled! Thanks to her..(bitter) ..so there you go..done with my post! Looking forward to be part of GT again..

I'm not the type of gal who hungs out with my
girlfriends all night. Im not even fond of
making many friends specially of my same
sex. But dont get me wrong, Im not lesbian
or something nor Im not malandi either. Im
just more comfortable with guys companion.
Surely, Im gonna blame my course (mechanical
engg) since its all started there hehe..but
I dont have any regrets..I really enjoyed
boys company..no arte..just go with the
flow..unending kalokohan..green jokes..and
so much moreeee...

So let me introduce to you
my nakayoshi (its a japanese word for
bestfriend)..We really hung out well..mostly
knows how our brain works even not saying it
out loud..I really dont know what exactly
happened to us but for me our bond is really
special..he is my officemate, my jogging
buddy, even my driver..haha..(sorry
nakayoshi since Im not good at driving
yet..so better teach me more often..)

Maybe I'm just lucky to have him as my bestfriend,
we can talk anything under the sun..love
talks (since we are both committed to long
distance relationship), work issues, health
concerns, religions, family affairs and we
even talk nonsense but oddly still enjoying
the chitchat! :-)..Some already
misunderstood how we treat each other but
who cares about the low profile opinions,
right? They just experiencing idle time so
let them..harhar.. Anyway, to my nakayoshi
thank you for the asaran..for the
kulitan..for the pikunan..No, seriously,

thank you bestfriend, idol, nakayoshi..for
sharing your life with me and
vise versa of course..for the trust..for
listening to my unending silly jokes and
stories..for the treats..for always giving
me a hand..for the undying support..and oh
for entrusting me your Mitsubishi
adventure..I really enjoyed the ride though
Im a bit nervous while driving..haha..I hope
the friendship will last even outside f.tech
life..but if not, well I'm grateful enough to
be part of your boring life!! ahahaha...here's
a big hug for you...ammmmmmmmmm.. (I hope
Chir and Aran wont mind) winkz!